Space for me to jot. 

9/9/26 Spent the past few weeks feeling like my brain was functioning on a very low frequency. I had a couple weeks off work and elle was on nightshift so I basically lived inside my head and didn't do much in the #physical world. Then I hurt my back and had an existential crisis. Then I went on vacation and drank so much and ate so much while hanging around two babies that sucked up all my time and energy and attention. Now, I want to cleanse my body and soul and reset. I am happy to be working again bc I get to walk around all day and I like walking around all day. I am trying to practice self-discipline again. I used to be so good at that and then I was like wow I'm so good at this I deserve to reward myself by losing all discipline. Life is so fun like that